Boy have I been stinking up the joint lately. First of all, I totally blew off Sal's bowling on Thurs afternoon. At 5:00 (It starts at 4:30) it dawned on me that she had to be at bowling. She was NONE too happy with me.
Saturday I forgot her basketball practice. She had social club later in the day and we got her to that. When I picked her up she gets in and promptly says "you forgot to take me to baaaasketball". CRAP.
I really don't understand why. I mean, I used to work and never missed anything. Now, I'm at home - alone and I'm having problems. I have always said that being a stay at home Mom was the hardest job and that's why I *went* to work - but I meant with kids at home. I have no kids from 9-2:30. Pretty much the same amount of time I had them before so nothing big has changed except I have time at home to do things. Now, granted, I HAVE underestimated exactly how much time that is. When I first lost my job/quit - whatever - I thought "OMG - I'll have all this time to really clean things and do things like paint and write....." NOT. 9-2:30 *seems* like a very long time - it's not.
I mean - it's ok to clean a room - not a kids' room but a bathroom or room where you don't need a dump truck backed up to the house. And it's time to do laundry and get some dishes done - but it's not time to drag things out and have to put them back again because you have to get dinner going. I have to work on a better schedule of what I'm doing each day. I think I've let my guard down and haven't been as anxious about making sure I'm where I'm supposed to be - which has helped my health - just not my Mother skills.
:-)
Speaking of health. I saw my Dr this week. He talked me into a flu shot (no, he didn't have too talk much) and we talked about my spiritual health. He had no religious affiliation on my records - I'm new to him - I saw his partner for the last 20+ years - but he's since moved....anywho... We talked about my hesitance of naming myself Christian - being as how I'm not all that encompasses AND being that I HATE what Christianity has begun to stand for lately. I know that's not true of all Christians - but then I ask - where is *their* outcry? Where is their spokesman that says "We do NOT believe in this"??? Again, I digress.
My Dr is awesome - we talked about how hypocritical some are and that going to a church does not make a person embrace everything about that religion. That it is possible to keep one's own identity and beliefs within the church. We even discussed my friend Peter (the apostle - my favorite) and how he felt this way about Paul (never cared much for Paul). So, I'm feeling better about this. I find my Dr very interesting - given he is a vegan, climbs mountains and is SO animated you would swear he was on stage. He believes in Eastern medicine of mind but also endorses the flu shot and drugs of Western medicine. I just felt better after seeing him.
Now all I need to do is get it together. :-)
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