Life goes on so bleck and then out of nowhere you're cheered

I know it's been a while.  Truth is - I've been in grief.  Same old grief - loss of my child.  I know I've explained the whole wade into the water thing - I know it's hard to understand probably - but sometimes the anger and sadness and worry join forces and get to you for a long time.  There's been a LOT to be happy about - and I am - but I've been down too and it got the best of me.  I'll go into Sal's gold, Jack's baseball, School being out, and more Mabel stuff - but today really needed to be put down in writing. 

Sally came home from school with this piece of paper:

It's hard to see - her aide writes what she says in highlighter and then Sal traces with pencil.  Here's what it says:  Someone I think is a champion is my mom.  She cooks dinner.  She watch tv with me. Wash the dishes.  Take me to camp. 

Ok - I BAWLED at this.  Here's the thing.  You don't get a lot of feely stuff from Sal.  It's even hard to see her as having feelings sometimes - she's so very pragmatic.  Sally also always chooses Jack as her topic of conversation, papers - you name it - it's always Jack.  For her to come up with this about ME - well, it's huge to me.  I want to frame this.  :-)   It really snapped me out of my funk.  Made me realize that she DOES care about the things I do.