"I wish S didn't have Autism." J's words ring true in my ears. "Yeah, well, then she wouldn't be S would she? She wouldn't say things like *you're a nice boy, J*.
"She might," he answered me.
"No, autism is as much a part of S as her eye color or being right handed. It's the way she sees the world."
This whole little conversation came up as we put J to bed - after leaving a family gathering rather abruptly. S was very close to melt down totally tonight. It was too warm, too loud, too close and she was tired and she couldn't really "get away "or "tune out" as she does. We tried a walk outside - but being dark I think it scared her just a little. Or at least put more anxiety in her. I'm VERY tired. My anxiety doesn't help either in the situation. And thus, this is why we don't go many places that we don't know well.
I feel very bad for B and J. They were having SUCH a good time. I MUST remember that next time we should take two cars. It doesn't seem fair to punish EVERYONE. I also feel sorry for S. It gets crazier and crazier as the years go by with meltdown prevention.
Autism is NOT a tragedy it is the fact that MOST of us are unversed in the autism language and don't know how to help them maneuver this crazy world. Hell, most of the time*I* can't maneuver the world. Little secret: the walk tonight was as much for me as it was for her. I just can't do the loud and crazy anymore. :-)
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