I can understand now that divorce is really like a death and you mourn it. I have good days and then not so good days. It's crazy how hard unwinding a 21 year marriage is. Sure you sign a paper and it's done - but the other stuff is just mind blowing. Then there's all the mourning feelings . I swear I go through 12 different feelings before 9 am. :-)
I still really worry about the kids. I took Sal to see where Bill will be living soon. She was pretty good after that. She started talking about "sleepovers" and that her People will be going over there. She's also WAY into the daycare. She's carted all of her toys from outside (play kitchen and such) up to the deck to be washed and taken to the daycare. Of course I'm not getting it all together near as fast as she'd like. :-)
I'm looking forward to opening the daycare again. Thanks to my facebook friends we have found the perfect name: Little People Daycare. Sal had a HUGE smile on her face when I told her. Little by little we're starting to get there.
I'm hoping when Bill actually moves out (hopefully by the end of the month) we can get into some sort of "new normal" schedule. Right now it just feels like we're all treading water. It's hard to get dinner and figure out what's going on each night when you're not sure who's going to be where and at what time. But this too will pass, right.
Jack tried out for basketball this week. There were over 30 sixth graders and there is no 6th grade team so needless to say he didn't make it. He *seems* to be taking it well. He's doing that "boy thing" where one minute you can't shut him up and the next you can't pull a word out. Hormones, being a male and of course divorce is taking it's toll. I just figure if I keep listening to every single thing and checking in every night that I'll be able to help. God, give me strength.
Sal's easier. She's pragmatic. She talks to her teachers and to everyone and almost brings things up at very crazy times - but she's always easy to put at ease with what's going on. Thank God - they're like a tag team those two. :-)
